I can’t even begin to express just how profoundly grateful I feel at the moment.  Things are flowing, I am feeling very present and in the moment.  I feel like I am being given the keys to the kingdom…or at least my kingdom a.k.a. my life ;) .

Not even sure where to begin but the beginning is a very good place to start. It all begins when you make a decision to follow something that you are passionate about and feel like things just aren’t going to feel right unless you do. The point here is the word FEEL i.e. not think!  Then you follow it.   At first it is like walking with a stone in your shoe.  Until you answer the call of the very thing that your are passionate about, life is distinctly uncomfortable…sometimes just a little bit and sometimes a whole lot.   And sooner or later, it just gets on your nerves so much that you just have to say “Oh f&$k it” and just run with it, even if you don’t have a clue how or what to do. Making sense? Bear with me on this one.

This is otherwise known as following the creative urge.   Literally just following the urge to create for the hell of it.   Not to solve a problem or to get away from something.  Just creating because you want to.   This is an urge that I have had for a very long time but because I was busy trying to be an Intuitive Guide and Teacher and work at that because I thought I knew what it was and what it looked like. It never occurred to me that the creative flow might just reveal that to me and that I could have fun along the way.   So, recently I just had to say “oh f£&k it” and follow the urge.  Who would have thought?  Me…Mr Serious as I had become over the last few months/years/decades.  It all started with finger painting.  Then walks in the park (Regent’s Park is amazing…who knew? Everyone apparently except me who was busy doing other stuff!).   A very formative kid’s birthday party evening spent playing video games and assorted silliness with my friend Ian.  The point is, all this is fun and it is frivolous, but it is not escapist. It is following the creative urge.   Finding out that there is no “right” ways to create.  There is no “right” way to play.  There is no “right” way.  To quote my last blog, “there’s only one way….and that’s your own”.

It is funny because I thought I would be writing a blog giving lots of tips and all those serious points about life that other personal development blogs share.  But I guess at this stage, just sharing bits of the journey are enough.

Go out.  Play.  Enjoy the coming Autumn and the falling leaves.  Go kick the leaves as they fall.  Be a child again, even if just for a short time.  Give yourself permission to just be.  Create.  Something profound…or not profound.  Finger paint.  Sing.  Don’t give a stuff about what other people think.  It doesn’t matter what, just enjoy it. Enjoy your life right here and right now.  Not at some point in the future (something about journeys not destinations).  Let yourself feel – all of it.  And, then let go.

Maybe this is just assorted ramble right now, but that is fine…for right now, it’s just about creating magic.

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